Weird Dreams

Every now and then I get some really bizarre and disturbing dreams. They're not necessarily nightmares... They're just off somehow.

I once had one that was about a nuclear bomb going off. It had to do with me being strong enough to survive and thrive from that situation.

I had another one last night. This time it wasn't cut into non-sensible bits.

This time it was one long dream. I was at Death Guild (since I like going dancing there every Monday). For some reason (a reason that I can't even begin to understand) it was being held on a tall ship. There was a lot of people there. All dancing. I was hanging out with some friends who happened to be vending that night.

An ex-BF of mine (the most abusive of my BFs) walked in. He looked like he was looking for someone and wasn't going to stop until they found them. I mean, he used any means necessary to get to them, including beating up people to get information and threatening to kill them. It turns out that he was looking for me. After a while of me dancing. I went back to sitting down with my friends. He came up to me trying to play all coy. He acted like he was trying to act nice so I would get back together with him. he even pointed out that he had a nail in his shoe. I told him he should take it out. But anything more then that I wasn't willing to give him. At one point he got so angry with me that he threatened to kill every one in the club.

Then I got a flash of everyone lying down on the deck of the ship. He has a hold of me and won't let go. I have one arm free so I can grab a near by rope (my life line as it were). I felt as though he was going to kill me because I chose to get out of that situation. That he would be willing to beat me with in an inch of my life. I took the rope and looped it around his neck and pulled. I kept pulling until he fell to the deck himself. And I was crying.

I'm curious as to what this dream is about.

I know that if he and I share any friends, he typically slanders me until the other person wants nothing to do with me. Luckily he doesn't know many of my friends. He's still angry that I left. But I had to. It was after 3 years of him belittling me and verbally abusing me that I decided I had to leave. What I wanted in a relationship he wasn't giving me.

Even after leaving him, he still tried to get back together with me... Even to the point that he would talk shit about me to friends. He's still doing it to this very day.

*shrugs* I still have no idea what the significance of this dream is.

Man, do I have some weird dreams.